Game over for the mind

See, this resistance is only the resistance to check because the mind knows the ego knows that if you check, it's game over for the mind. So it keeps feeding you something and some doubt, some issue, like the doubt about what is being said, about the doubt about who is speaking, the doubt about the medium, also you say, okay, but I'm just watching online on YouTube. How can it be that my story ends with the satsang online? I want to have those, one of those great experiences in person satsang, and it should be that this laughter should come and it should not stop. And I saw those videos with Papaji, and it should happen like this. Here, nobody is watching, so who's chronicling my freedom? I'm just sitting here watching on YouTube, or sitting on the handout.