I haven't understood anything in spirituality — including this

I didn't give you a sense of hope that you're really now getting a grip on this. You're getting a grasp on this. For me if you've got a grasp on something then I have to come up to the new pointer. Because you think you've grasped it. Now I need to provide something fresh to you, which you feel can bring you back into that wonder, into that empty, into that awe. And somewhere maybe our attempt is the reverse. So, we have you trying to constantly touch. Samajah, touch. Samajah, touch. Did I understand? Did I get it? Did I? This is like that. And you may be feeling that you're breathing your spiritual wealth through that process. For me you're restricting your spiritual wealth through that process. Because I haven't understood anything in spirituality so far. Is it? Including this. So, can we really? And is that helpful for our growth to be able to say that I have concluded? It seems to be helpful for our pride.