20 years as a therapist, then handed it to God and missed an appointment

I am American. You see. You see. So she said, she said, I had this at some level, I told her that your concern that if you hand away a life to God, he is just going to make a message with a hash of it. She said, you said to hand it over to God. And I have been practicing psychotherapist for 20 years. Never missed an appointment. And I handed it over to God. And for the first time in 20 years, I missed an appointment. I gave it over to God and he messed it up. So this giving it over to God cannot be done with an expectation of what a mess of prison. There is not a cup out. It's not an excuse. But we still, it is still have an idea of what my life should be. Then that is not surrender at all. So it is that expectation which has to be surrender.