A Teacher's Confession

What is the most dangerous form of pride that I have come across? It's a spiritual pride. [hard cut] Now, and I hope all of you will become teachers of God one day. The Dharma of the teacher is what? The teacher cannot be saying you must be empty for God and themselves will be full of themselves, especially while sharing Satsang. So, the constant effort and the constant work, lifelong vigilance, lifelong work for all of us is to smell for our own pride, to remain empty especially when sharing Satsang, to be as transparent an instrument of Atma as possible, and it is a very difficult project. Because one of the forms of the ego wanting to rule the world, how does it know it's ruling the world? If it is being revered, if it is being worshipped. So as a teacher of God, when the reverence, when the worship and the devotion is directed in our direction, if it finds a stock over there, it is the most enjoyable. It must be like a good priest in the temple: must be offered to the Lord as soon as possible. Because if it stops over there even for a short time, it can corrode our own growth, our own spirituality. So, if to illustrate, some of you said further in your objective, that is beautiful, that is your Dharma. But if this foolish boy goes to ever feel like, yes, he has something to offer to all of you, to any of you, then this foolish boy is in the biggest trouble of his life without realizing it. Because what is not important is the audience of many, even if the whole world becomes your follower. What is most important is the audience of one who is sitting there inside of, right there, but in our pride, we don't listen to its voice. All of these things I am sharing from experience, and I experience this every day, it's not even past experience. I can notice in my prayer that so many times, even in the sharing of Satsang, I allowed an I to take the seat instead of being an instrument of God. And I am happy to confess that to all of you, because if I was not able to confess that to all of you, that would mean that I am starting some pride about that, the pride of being perfect or some stupid idea like that, and from some perfect, very far, very, very far. So, this stops us from being empty for God, and this pride is always on the prowl, even if you had an insight into the highest, so don't get into this fallacy that there will be a moment of self-realization and that's it. Now, you can just claim your sage-hood for eternity. Papaji, now we alluded to this when he said: vigilance till my dying breath.