Surrender, fail, reconnect. The spiritual journey

So, at some point we have to say, I am letting go fully and surrender into God's will. And then we fail. And then we say again, we reconnect. And then we live in God's will. And then we fail. Then we reconnect. We live in God's will. Then we fail. But this is not a sad story. It can sound like that. We reconnect, we try and then we fail. It doesn't sound like a glorious story that we want as per it will life to be. It is actually very beautiful because every moment you spend empty of me, if it is gift you can give to yourself.