The bud opening up - it might feel like dying

In the bottom of the flower, the flower, the flower, but it also feels like when the change comes and it is transforming, it is opening up. It might feel like it is time. All my rituals are just opening, the light is falling off, I mean like that. This resistance to opening up is like that. Don't know what is happening. That is why sometimes it will say that the woody is the easiest time of it. It will feel like whatever it is, it is the master's problem, come to your motionless existence.