Wounded by His love — He is waiting for us to return

in John of the Crosshead, and I was wounded, I love for God, I'm part of the reason that I completely ended the exact trip, and I saw that I was wounded in His love, I also saw that He is waiting more, with more further, that is the door, then He is waiting for us to return, and in the way, if your parents will recognize this instinct, which I may say that they're really waiting to get back to the parents, but usually it is the parents or waiting a lot so, in this case, it's all like the particles and the story of the particles that God is waiting for us for now, then why doesn't He hold me just open up like that, He showed up at the door, and He reached on up at the door, Why doesn't He just open us and embrace us always?