It is impossible to suffer without pride

so if you are suffering, we don't want to admit it of course. I don't want to admit it of course, but every time I say, I notice that it is impossible to suffer without pride. I deserve better, but I should be done with this now. See, I, I, I, that is pride. But if you are completely reliant on God, if you are living a life in surrender to him, then what is here that can suffer? It means how far-fetched, but can we meet everything as his gift? Can we meet everything as his love? Only if you are not proud, only if you are not entitled.