Stuck for three years with Maharaj

And there is no rush at all. Because here, in this so-called spiritual journey that I had, with Mr. Qedatamaraj and I am back, I was probably, quote unquote, stuck here for three years almost, maybe two years or three years. Because he kept saying, stay with the sense of being, stay with the sense of being now. What is the sense of being? I can't find it for a long time. And then one day, just sitting in order, which are going from here to office, it became apparent then I was like, what? This is always here. But before that, if somebody had told me, it is always there. It would hesitate to me. Then in this found, it is always there. It seemed like, how did I ever not have this? So, I am completely open.