Your True Name Is Awareness

Right now, not relying on conceptual knowledge, are you confused about who you are? Of course, if you go to the mind and say, okay right now, what do I actually know? It's not about that category at all. So I'm glad we're speaking like this very very subtly today. Now many of us, when we ask, “Is Self-knowledge apparent to you?”, you may look to your mind and say “Do I know myself?”. Of course you can't know your Self there [pointing to the head]. You see? There's another aspect of you where you cannot not know yourself. How to access that aspect? Don't access the false. That is the only coming to the Truth. Otherwise what would it be like, what would our life be like. I'm saying these words. If you didn't know yourself intuitively without perceiving yourself, then you would be sitting and wondering who is listening to all of this. Who is aware of the perception of sound? But you don't do that. If it is true that you do not know yourself, you should be constantly wondering “What's happening? Who's hearing this stuff?”. But you're not confused about that. It is apparent to you that there is an “I” that is aware of perception. Apparent to you intuitively. And you're comfortable with that. But what happens is, what the mind is proposing to you about who you are, is so different from that. You see? And we are buying into, we got used to buying into our mind's notions about who we are. That it can seem absurd, what you already intuitively always know. That's a good sequence of words: already, intuitively, always. That can cut out the whole spiritual journey. There we already know. How do I know intuitively? Do I come to it or is it always there? Always there. It is already intuitively always known. But we have been conditioned by the world, which is operating under the play of the mind, to rely on its proposals as true knowledge. And we are short circuiting all of that now by really zeroing in and saying, so what really happens? And we have found that with just perception nothing is really happening. Including just perception of thought. So when we say 'you troubled me' or 'the world troubled me' or 'this happened to me, that happened to me', all of that is just proposal from the mind, because this 'me' that is troubled is not the one that is aware of the hearing of these words right now. It's not that one. [Silence] So what is happening, because in Satsang we often say these words, you see. We've already also heard them so often that we think we already know a lot of this. So it gets neglected when it has been said. What I've said is actually atomic. Because what I'm saying is, without any effort, without needing to do anything at all, that which all of us as spiritual seekers are looking for, as true spiritual seekers are looking for, that is already apparent to us. Just not in the way we think. So are we all meeting here at this point? Have we identified the true culprit, the true trouble maker or no? That is the question. Or are you still thinking, oh itʼs my work, it's my money, it's my relationships, it's my lack of spiritual progress? Zero in on the true culprit. It is not even the perception of your thought, but just your ability to give it truth value, which is called belief. Your ability as Consciousness to give it truth value enables Consciousness to play as if it is “I am somebody”. Your I Am-ness plays as if it is I am something or somebody. And the minute you buy into that somebody-ness, then you are bound to fail. But the design of the somebody-ness, or the lawyer for the somebody-ness is that it is going to try its very best to try and make it succeed. And you will fight with everything that you think you've got till you really are forced to give up on it. So rather than going through all that cycle, listen to what I'm telling you, and let go. Because eventually you have to. Either you hear me now, or you wait for life to squeeze it out of you. So in one of the metaphors I use I'm talking about how the battle is for time. Because the mind will say: „Tomorrow, tomorrow, tomorrow, Truth can wait, I already know anyway what it is, but to live from there is to live in God's light can wait, let me be worldly today.“ This is the trick of the mind. What does it want? In the same way that I am saying this moment, this moment, this moment - in the same way it is saying: „Just one, just believe one.“ This is mind. You see? Itʼs not offering you too much, just “This idea, that this is true, believe it”. What happens? Can we take two minutes and just explore for ourselves what happens empty of belief, and then when we do believe, what happens. And the challenge (the game) is that to all of you it is apparent that you are unbounded pure Beingness and you are That which is aware even of that. This is apparent to you. Try to keep it apparent even as you believe a thought. And you can try the most harmless thoughts: The coconut is green, the tea is hot,… They don't seem like they're egoistical. So harmless. But see what happens.