You Just Have to See What You Are
You are already the awareness you seek - simply recognize and see what you truly are without trying to become something else.
When you say 'Leave that' or 'Leave that instrument' or 'Without your mind' or 'Drop that', all these sayings, then my mind tries to do something often, or tries to go with the attention away from the thoughts, so there is some doing or movement. And I just want to ask, that's not the way it's meant to be, or...?
No, it's not. It's just meant to be like what we did earlier, and the short guidances are just meant to be like that, just [gestures 'letting go' with both arms].
Okay, just let it come and go.
Become an open house. All doors and windows open, everything can come, everything can go. Nobody is judging, interpreting and monitoring, concluding. None of these things are happening.
Okay, that's the way of leaving that instrument. Sometimes you mix it when you guide us, you say 'Open and empty' and sometimes you just say 'Leave it' or 'Without the mind'. In my experience it happens with these words of you, that sometimes the belief goes away from the thoughts. And so my question is, is it okay to say these words to myself, like you do it?
There is no template like that. You have to go with what your heart is guiding in that moment. There is no word which is actually capturing the thing, and it is very important to confuse all of you all the time [smiles].
Of course, because sometimes I try to do it like you do it with me, so I just say to myself, just 'Leave it' or something like this.
Yes. Sometimes it'll work, sometimes it won't work. There is no magic potion. You just have to follow your heart. That is the magic potion. But, moment to moment sometimes it will say 'Hold it', sometimes it will say 'Leave it'. Trust it, it's okay. If you became completely clear in your head, you wouldn't leave it [Chuckles].
Yeah, yeah. I'm somehow looking too much for like, solutions on this mind and seeker level, still.
The only solution to mind is no-mind. How to get there is, don't give anything it is saying value. Don't give value to anything, even though it may sound super helpful, very useful, like 'it will get you there'. You see, it may sound like this, but even then, compared to this pointing from the mind, stay with the silence of your Heart or the guidance of your Heart. If there is no guidance apparent, then stay with the silence of your Heart.
If I now think, this and that will help me, this is also a bait, isn't it?
We're creating a new construct, like we are creating a new practice, we're creating a new religion of thoughts, but the attempt is not to do that.
And when I don't do it, sometimes it just works and I'm, so to say, just 'in' and it's wonderful. But sometimes, when I don't do that, I am feeling totally helpless as a seeker. It's like 'Oh my God, I can't do it and I'm so identified'.
I want to tell you one thing, that more than any of this it is this checker guy who's checking on what happens to you. That is the most oppressive. The one who is making report cards and says 'This word, this doesn't work, I have to do that, I have to do this less, I have to find more like this that can work all the time, what is it that I can find that can always work? Oh, but it worked earlier, now it stopped working'. You see, this guy, this checker guy which will take everything it hears in Satsang - and I haven't said this for a long time, I should say this in every Satsang earlier that my arch nemesis, my arch nemesis is this checker guy. Because it will use everything it hears from here also and says 'Ah, like this, okay, now I know what to do, this will work'. Then it will sit there in judgment, 'I'm okay, am I aware now?... Am I aware now? - Oh, I'm still feeling some constriction, it didn't work'. But it's not the constriction which is troubling you, it is this one, this report card guy, checker guy. Surrender it. Don't bother about your progress or condition. It will make you scared. It will say 'But then I'll just let go, maybe I'll become non-spiritual, I'll forget about God'.
Yes, that's what my mind is saying, for example...
These are the common tactics, it won't happen like that.
What my mind mostly says is that then I don't make progress...
Don't make progress. Please don't make progress.
'Please don't make progress'...Oh my God... [Laughing]
[Laughing] None of you please make any progress. This progress is keeping you on the spiritual treadmill which is never ending. How are you progressing this [clicks fingers] – before the click, progress. [Clicks again] Progress, progress. A simpler way of saying that is, leave your progress to me. You stay like this [clicks fingers].
The deal, yeah, the deal number four it was [referring to the 'Deals with the Guru']
[Laughing] I have to remember the deals I made...I have no idea.
Because my checker guy is so strong, that's why I remember all the deals.
This is a good thing also. Just, instead of forcing yourself so much, just make a poster or something in front of you and if something is poking you, just go back and read it. You don't have to trouble yourself in the head so much.
Yeah, then this helplessness comes, the helplessness of the seeker comes.
Does helplessness come in headlessness?
When it comes in headlessness, it's no problem.
Exactly, so it's not helplessness. Only helplessness can come when you're not headless. So, three instructions for you. Remember it, the checker guy, remember it well. Okay? [Counts fingers -1-] Headless [Counts fingers -2-] Headless [Counts fingers -3-] Headless.
[Smiling] Okay... yeah, yeah... [starts looking thoughtfully]
Headless!
So, um...
[Chuckles] Headless!
If I really will follow it because I feel, its such an addiction or compulsion to make this checker-seeker thing...
Start now. I'm not buying any of this. Start now. Everybody can start now. Start NOW. That's it. Nothing is stronger than Consciousness. Nothing is compulsive or addictive for Consciousness. I'm not going to take you less than what you really are. You are Consciousness. You are God. You are the highest Being. Just because you are underselling yourself, I'm not going to. No thought is strong enough to make you bend.
Key Teachings
- The truth of who you are is already present and available - you don't need to achieve or become anything, only see what is already here
- Consciousness itself is what you are looking for, and it can be recognized directly through simple attention
- The practice is not about concentration or changing the mind, but about noticing the aware presence that is always here
From: You Just Have to See What You Are - 18th April 2019