The Story of the Seeker

[Reads from chat] ‘Father, what you said about being just Awareness is very clear.’ Good. [Continues reading] ‘If this is all there is to Self-knowledge, why don’t I speak the same things as Krishna said?’

[Chuckles] You see? This is what I’m saying, ‘What does it mean for me?’ Forget about that. Who is the central character in this report? Who wants to speak like Krishna? Is it the same One that you noticed your Self to be? No. Let go of this one who is the claimant to that which you have just found. Who is the one sticking claim to this discovery? That one wants to speak like Krishna, not the One that you discovered. The non-existent claimant, which is just fictional, which is just a story of your individuality, wants the ultimate conclusion of enlightenment. Because what better end can there be to this story? Let me go off on a high note [chuckles]. It doesn’t want to just dissolve or, ‘One day Consciousness saw that its limited idea about itself was not true.’—finished. It doesn’t want to end like that. It wants ‘Yes, Consciousness was playing as xyz and that xyz ended up exactly like Krishna.’ Who doesn’t want that kind of end? But the emergence of (to use the same term) Krishna through this body-mind will not be the end of that one’s story. It will be only post, the dissolution of that story. You cannot attach any fancy glorious idea and hope that it will be the culmination of the story of the seeker. The story of the seeker… just one day you are writing and writing the story and one day the pen just drops, mid- sentence. And mostly, the one in the story, the one taking itself to be the protagonist of the story does not like that end. Very few like those movies that just end very abruptly. [Chuckles] [Enacting the seeker’s internal conversation]Like… ‘What happened? I just wasted two hours of my life. What happened?’ [Laughs] But that is the same reaction. It is exactly the same reaction. ‘Yes, I am aware of this … okay, okay, then? Then …?’ No then! [laughs] ‘I am following… you told me not to look at anywhere else. I am doing properly Father, I’m listening. Yes… I am aware of this perception, yes… and then …?’ And when the Master says ‘Nothing!’ [laughs], it’s not so satisfactory. You feel like ‘Okay’ [Laughs]. It can also feel like a digression [Laughs], because you have nowhere to put this conclusion, there is nothing that you have concluded. You just saw very naturally something which is out of this universe. Of course, the mind will not sell it to you like this. The You that you noticed, your Self that is aware of all this perception, is a non-objective experience (if you can even call it that). That means that it’s not in this universe, in any universe. But the mind will say what? ‘Nothing.’ It’s undeniable that you are That which is Aware, independent of whatever may be playing out in this world of time and space, undeniable. But while we keep waiting for the mind’s certificate, the mind will keep saying ‘Nothing.’ What greater discovery can you make than to realize you are not in this universe? We don’t even have to go as far as to say ‘The universe is in you’—it’s okay, we’ll come to that— but mainly, to see that You are not some thing objectively contained in this universe. At best, it may be the universe which is objectively contained in You. In that instant of Self recognition, this is apparent to you, because the You that is aware of this perception, what is its location? Where is the You that is aware of this perception? I rarely say this, for a moment, forget about ‘who’ and tell me ‘where’? Where is the One that is aware of all of this perception?

Yeah, and yet? It is You. What kind of magic is that? Where is it? You may say ‘here’, and yet that ‘here’ is not here, it’s not here. Where is that ‘here’? What greater discovery can we make of that which is the most obvious and yet out of this world? Literally out of the world.