The Guidance Received Independent of Mental Interpretation Is Your
Freedom comes from questioning the belief in what thoughts present, rather than trying to control attention - through inquiry 'who is not worthy?' or surrender to the Master.
I just wanted to speak about something that happens when I try to confirm.
Yes.
And what happens is that I keep getting identified again and again, it seems, with the one that wants to get out of it and with all these suffering states. And...
So, just to make sure I understood correctly: What is it that you are trying to confirm ? That you are the Self ?
Yes. That I`m not what`s appearing and disappearing, and not the one looking for it even.
Yes, yes. And how do you try to confirm that ?
By leaving all the...By bringing my attention back to the silence.
I see, I see.
Not giving too much attention to all the thoughts and ideas and fears and suffering.
Now, the trying to control attention way to do it is a very popular way to do it. Here, I was very unsuccessful with that way. And, maybe (attention) I did not feel like I have such a strong hold over attention because the more I tried to like, Maharaj [Nisargadatta Maharaj] said, 'Just keep your attention on the sense of Being', and his Master told him that, and he said, 'I only had to do that for three years and I was free'. And I remember reading that and saying: 'Three years? I can`t keep it there for three minutes! How to keep it for three years?' [Chuckles]. So, and that is why most of my pointing and advice comes from the other key which you need to unlock identity, which is the aspect of belief. So, you need both attention and belief to take yourself to be limited. You see?
To take yourself...?
...to be limited or to take yourself to be the 'me' or the person you need both, isn`t it? Like, I can say: 'Don`t think of a pink elephant' – the classic example. No? 'Don`t bring any attention to a pink elephant' and naturally for most of us a pink elephant will start to show up. The more we try to resist it, the more it comes. 'Now, don`t think of a banana.' The banana – you see, it`s there. So, but it`s easier to not take ourselves to be a pink elephant or a banana. You see? So, if I say, don`t take yourself to be that which attention is showing you, then that seems to me to be a simpler way to play, and yet for you, if it is natural to divest your attention from thoughts and to be able to keep it on the sense of Being, or to stabilize it in a mantra or something like that, whatever you may be trying to do with your attention, then, if it is natural to you, that is fine as well. Because identification is not possible unless you bring attention to a thought first. You see? But I only found the attention game a bit difficult. I found surrender or letting go to be much easier. So, that`s why I always point to your belief in what the thought is saying – not, that the thought should not appear. Because, controlling attention means the thought should not appear. Unless your attention is on it, it cannot appear, isn`t it? Only through attention do we perceive, you see? Perception and attention are part of the same play. So, but, I found it here, very easy to not take myself to be what the thoughts were presenting me to be, rather than try to not think or try to push thoughts away.
It just seems to come so quickly. With this thought of being the one suffering, immediately it feels like it`s me. And even though there is, like, a knowing that it can`t be me, it just doesn`t have the power...
Okay I have some advice for you on that one. Because, over the years I met many who say 'But, there is no time to believe or not believe', you see, that the thought comes and immediately I`m identified with the thought. That is a very common complaint. [You see ?] But it is not with all thoughts. If the thought came to you and said: 'Oh, you have to lie a hundred k...(52:39?) today', like a power lieer or a body builder or something, then you may not be identified with it so immediately. You may just say 'Oh, what a strange thought, let it go'. You see? But if a thought comes about something that you are identified with, or you have an interest in, then that seems to get belief faster, for those are the ones which seem to exert more magnetism on our belief. So, what you could do, is there a recurring theme of thoughts which seem to get your belief oeen?
Yeah, like, I`m not good enough, I can`t do it, I can`t get out of it, it will never work, this kind of...
Yes, yes, so these unworthy sort of …
Yes, yes.
Unworthy spiritual seekers, a very popular thought construct in spirituality. So what you could do with this is, that this particular theme you can inquire into. You see, you can inquire into and ask yourself: 'Who is not worthy?' And the mind will say, 'I know, I know, there is nobody like that', but still inquire, really look: 'Is there somebody there who is not worthy?' Now, when is the inquiry done? When is the inquiry finished? When the thought arises, if it has become light and laughable, then you are over that. And you don`t need to inquire into it any more. You see? That is one Hp. If this kind of inquiry doesn`t seem natural to you and you are more of a devotional temperament, then you could just say, ´My worthiness or unworthiness is all my Master`s problem, his problem to deal with'. Just surrender it. You see? With your full heart. With your full heart, just surrender it. Now, depending on your temperament, and not just temperament, but moment to moment, sometimes you are more open to inquiring, sometimes you are more open to surrendering, sometimes you can use both, like, at different times do the inquiry, at different times just surrender it. And both of these will make that thought lighter and lighter and soon it will become laughable. You see? So, those are the two main, let`s call it techniques on our path, self-inquiry and surrender.
Yes, it just feels that this self-inquiry is not always possible because sometimes it`s just kind of making this noise even louder, because it`s looking for the one who is suffering, it`s kind of bringing all these things in for the one who can`t find it and can`t get it, and so it`s...yeah.
You`re saying that it doesn`t seem as easy or natural to inquire?
Sometimes, yes.
Yes. And you feel like you`re blessed with some devotion in your heart?
Yes [smiles and nods].
Then, that`s easy, that`s easy. For those who are blessed with devotion, then just hand it over at the Master`s feet. It`s nice, it`s a beautiful way, yes.
Thank you, thank you.
Very good, very good. So welcome.
Key Teachings
- Both attention AND belief are needed to take yourself as the limited 'me' - questioning belief is essential for liberation, not just controlling attention
- It is easier to not take yourself to be what thoughts present rather than trying to control or stop thoughts - identification requires attention to a thought first
- For recurring thoughts that quickly identify (like 'I'm not good enough'), use self-inquiry ('Who is not worthy?') or surrender to the Master - both make the thought light until it becomes laughable
From: The Guidance Received Independent of Mental Interpretation Is Your Intuition – 18th June 2021