Surrender Completely to God

How do you know? What is the source of our judgment about ourselves, even that “I have so much self-judgment”, isn't that a self-judgment as well? Where can we go for the Truth about what is happening to us?

And what is your Heart saying right now?

I'm not asking that. I said, what is your Heart saying now?

Heart is saying? Take your time. Trust the silence of the Heart more than any of the highest guidance from the mind. Just like you prefer a half-eaten strawberry over just a photo of a strawberry. The photograph of the best strawberry versus like a crumpled half-eaten sort of strawberry, even that is better. So, trust your Heart more than the highest representations of the mind.

No, I'm not asking for that [inaudible]. How do you know? If you go to the thief for the address of the thief, it will say that the anger comes. It will always say, ‘I'm not the problem, it is this anger.’ Believe in the hypnosis of this thought. Which is the problem, it is your experience? But it is never your experience which is the problem.

Only bother or be concerned about the reactions which are not in this universe. That's what I'd like to hear about. All this moving and all that, it's just okay, it's fine.

It doesn't matter where attention is. Well, does it matter where attention is? Keep your attention on anything at all and let it be fully there in your attention, and tell me if Awareness goes away without the hypnosis of the thought. How does it matter where attention is? Can attention be outside your Being? Send attention outside of your Being. That is an attention I would love to meet. [smiles]. Send aZenHon where your Being isn't. So, the attention is just a tool to navigate our own Being, and our own Being contains this entire universe. So we come into the search for God and the search for the Truth because we are done with this universe. But if we allow these tiny tiny things, like movements and things to really get some narrative out of us, we are still then taking ourselves to be contained in this universe.

Forget it. Just forget it. Stay with your Heart even if it is quiet for like the next ten million lifetimes. Don't be impatient with it.

Thoughts are always dark. They are painting an image of us which is so tiny and small and obnoxious. And thoughts that determine the darkness or the lightness of them, they are the voice of the snake. I know it already, you don't have to even put them in categories. Even the highest sounding thought is complete darkness. And is the judgment about the quality of the thought or the category of the thought also not an intellectual play?

How do you know my dear? If you keep relying on the wrong source of knowledge, how will you come to the right conclusions? I'm telling you that you are the birthless magnificence in which the Being itself is born. Your mind is telling you that 'Oh, I have this problem that I have to solve'. Who are you going to follow?

The biggest story is not worth a moment of God. So, if you say to me that ‘Father, please value my story’ and if I started to value your story just like you may be doing, then I'm not being of any service to you. You say to me ‘Please meet me from my context and from where I think I am’ I am saying to you, if I believed in that limited nature of your Being, then I am not going to be in service to you at all.

Then you just find another friend who believes your narrative, and you don't need anybody like that.

And this can be very frustrating, but this frustration is very important because I hear it, without you having to say it, that ‘Why aren't you hearing me, why aren't you understanding me.’ I don't want to hear you as a limited one and understand you as a limited one, because that one is not true. So I can see it, it's not that I don't see it. But I don't want to indulge in it because if I also start indulging in it, then it's like two miserable friends at a pub, it's not a Satsang any more. Not that you can't go to a pub [laughs]. Isn't that how friends at a pub talk? ‘All this happened, my wife did this…’ Then a few moments of laughter, and you feel like ‘Wow, we had such a great time.’ That's not Satsang.

Exactly. The difference between a regular friend and a Master is that the Master will not give acceptance and approval to your false narrative.

That is Grace, my dear.

Is this a subtle way to get me into a narrative?

What we think we need is not actually what we need. The thinking will only propose a perpetuation of the thinking and the dominance of the thinking itself. It will never propose a solution which is beyond thought.

What is the source of all of this?

The mind has only one ability which is to try and sculpt or paint the best thought which may get your belief. That is all that it can do. But you as Consciousness cannot be forced, cannot be held hostage by even the most pristine thought. That power can never be taken away from you. So don't fall into the trap of the pristinely painted thought which says ‘But, this thought is so compelling, I have to believe it’. It's just a thought, only a thought. Surrender completely to God. Surrender completely, completely. Don't leave a single shred of yourself out. That's it, that's perfect, perfect. Not what you think now. Not what you think.

[Smiles] The appearance of thought is not thinking. Let the thoughts appear and disappear, that is not what we call thinking. It is to take them to be true representatives of Reality, truly as if something is happening. That is what we call thinking. [Silence] Surrender every aspect of your Being to Being itself, whether it is the body, whether it is your mind, memory, energy, chakras, whatever, everything.