See This Mind Trick

[Reading from chat] “In my seeing, I don’t know if I know anything except that seeing is. But I cannot comment on the seer or what is seen.” Yes, very good, very good. [Silence] So, the useful question, then, is to see that: Who sees that only seeing is? When you say “in my seeing”, what are we referring to ourselves as? And this is — may seem like — a very strange sort of question or a very simple question, but many times what can happen for us is that we can hold an identity of a ‘me’ who is now trying to juggle their Awareness or their primal Seeing with their identity, and to investigate who sees or who is aware of this Awareness then takes away this juggler who is trying to juggle between the recognition of the Self and the worldly play. Many times, it happens like this that we can say “Okay, now I see that I am Awareness, so what for ‘me’ now? What next? Is that it?” So, we still hold on to a ‘me’ perspective who has turned this non-experience also into an experience, and is saying, “Now that I have seen Mount Everest, what is left for me to see in this world?”; something like this. But when you see your Self then there is no ‘me’ left. When you see this Mount Everest, then you become Mount Everest. Then, it is not “Okay, so then what is left for ‘me’ to see?” It’s not what you are saying — I’m just using that as a trigger to explain this point to everyone, which is that: Be vigilant to this mind trick which will say, “Yes, yes, now I saw the Self, now what should I do? Is it done for me?” No. [Smiles] If you came away from the darshan [vision] of the Self as the ‘me’ who had the darshan of the Self, then it is still the trick, or one of the trump cards, of the mind. In the darshan of the Self, you are the Self. There is no ‘me’ left to conclude, saying, “Yes, I saw the Self, now what’s in it for ‘me’? Will I continue to hold on to it or no?” Sometimes, we are stuck in this kind of thing like “I had a recognition of the Self but then somehow I lost it.” So, the ‘me’ was still carried through the backpack of this seeming experience, but in the constant repetitive hammers that are coming in Satsang, where we are chipping away at this idea of ‘me’ constantly, then you will see that there is only the Self. There is nothing for the Self to gain from the recognition of the Self. [Silence] And, like this one, he said very nicely, “The Self is not hankering for any experience. It is not even judging something as good or bad.” So, this one that returns from that experience of enquiry or that insight and says, “Okay, so then doesn’t it mean this for me or shouldn’t it become like this for me?” [Pauses] So, don’t be one who is claiming that they had the experience of the Self. Nobody has the experience of the Self except the Self Itself. And don’t get confused about the word ‘experience’ because it is not a phenomenal experience.