Limitless Gratitude for One Moment of Self-Recognition
The mind cannot grasp the Self; true recognition comes through the heart, not mental confirmation, and we must stop relying on the mind for our identity.
You said something beautiful that this waking state, it's free. So, to be free is to give freedom to this waking state to do whatever, and it's not in our hands.
It is not to get freedom, no?
Yes.
It is for us to give freedom to it. [Laughs]
Exactly. And that did something inside. It’s all yours.
Very good, very good, very good.
Thank you.
Very welcome, my dear. Otherwise, in this constant spiritual seeking, we become so much into grasping and getting, understanding, knowing conceptually, that the true knowledge in our heart is just obscured, it seems to get lost in the background, which is counterproductive to what we started this whole thing for. We become more and more set in our ideas of what is right and what is spiritual and how I must be and how spacious I need to be and anger cannot come and lust cannot come and pain cannot come, my car cannot break down. We have so many ideas. But if you really look at it that is not free, that doesn't sound free at all. That doesn't mean that these things must come, as a new freedom now they must come. This is the opposites in the intellect. So, it can or it cannot; it's fine.
And then that question came from this—and I don't know, I’m going to say it anyway—I mean this is like this, so prayer….If everything is just like it is and it's perfect like this, so prayer seems like there's like a yearning for changing something. You pray so things change, maybe?
Many times, you’re right, prayer can start like that, where we have an idea of what we want and we feel like if we do this particular action enough or deeply enough or sincerely enough, then we will get the outcome that we want. It may start like that: Please, God, give me this— whatever freedom or money or body health, whatever it may be—and then we say okay, please give me this. At least one good thing about that is that the central focus or the power, the idea of power, has moved away from the non-existent ego into a locus which is seemingly broader, vaster. So it's okay, it can start like this. Then, as prayer develops, you will find that I don't really know what to ask for. Why, who am I to tell you what to give me? You know better anyway. Am I the greater intelligence or are you the greater intelligence? So, who am I to be able to say that if I had this much money or better health, my life may not become worse. I don't know any of those things, so it's all up to you, it's all up to you. So then, we let go of that aspect of our intellect which thinks it knows something about what it wants in life—that is let go of as well. Then, for some, as prayer deepens, you find that as I am here now, I find no me and no you, I just find the one divinity. So, what is there to ask and what is there to resist? All is in your light. So, it becomes so natural that this provisional game of asking and receiving is also let go of in the pure trust and pure love of whatever is playing out.
But if the prayer is not for myself but for others, that I truly want the well-being of everyone?
Yeah, it's fine, it's completely fine. Everything that you do with not grasping or wanting something for this limited entity that you take yourself to be is fine.
Okay, so I pray that I get to truly, truly meet you because that's what I really want in my heart, and that no concept stands between any idea. You said last time we spoke that my intellect will not survive.
Yeah.
And…I trust that.
Very good, very good.
I trust you so much, so much.
Very good, my child, very good.
Thank you.
Thank you, my dear.
Key Teachings
- The mind and intellect cannot discover or recognize the unchanging Reality/Self - it is beyond conceptual understanding and sense perception
- Self-recognition of Awareness is known directly through the heart but the mind cannot confirm it, and seeking mental confirmation is what keeps us stuck
- Awareness is the only thing that remains even when everything else goes - body, sensations, perceptions - it is our essential nature
From: Limitless Gratitude for One Moment of Self-Recognition - 1st June 2019