Lack of Clarity is Only at the Level of Perception or Concept.

IntuiHve Insight, all of Satsang is so that we can let go of our conceptual idea of our Self and come to this IntuiHve Insight. And when we say ‘come to it’, it is just le^ng go of the false. Le^ng go of that which is in Hme, le^ng go of that which is in space. And This is just apparent to you.

Yes, yes yes. So just for the moment let's explore this. So, when we say, ‘I’m not so clear about this’, now clarity can be, we can have a very clear percepHon [Holds his hand up] aZenHon is fully on the hand so the hand is very clear. It can be unclear if I’m trying to look at the hand, also I’m trying to calculate 570x45. Then I’m like ‘Hmmm’ and I’m trying to remember what I had for lunch yesterday. So, things became unclear, but they became unclear at the level of percepHon, because aZenHon is limited and aZenHon cannot be fully with mulHple percepHons. So, lack of clarity can be at the level of the first bowl, which is the level of percepHon. Isn't it? But the Self you are not recognizing in the first bowl, so it cannot be unclear in that way. With me?

Okay. Very good. Then the lack of clarity in the second bowl can be, ‘What is the capital of Estonia?!’ I don’t know! I'm not so clear about that. Was Serbia part of Yugoslavia or Czechoslovakia?? I don’t know!’ It can be lack of clarity, I’m not so clear. So that is like a lack of intellectual or conceptual clarity. Now the clarity that you are saying is not there, which type is that? Like if you were completely clear about yourself, then what type of clarity would that be?

What does experience mean? Does it mean percepHon?

It’s okay. We have Hme. Don’t worry at all. So it's not an aZack. We are just exploring together. Now many Hmes when that we say we are searching for an experience of the Self, we are also been told that the Self can never be an experience. Therefore, the Self can never be a perceptual experience. It is only ever going to be an intuiHve insight. Now the good news is that your intuiHve insight can never be more or less clear. Only your mind can have these kinds of fluctuaHons. Your intuiHon does not. So, where you know with full certainty, that you are Aware now, you are always clear about that. When we give this informaHon to the mind and say “What does this mean? Does this mean I am free?” Then we mix our desires into it, the third bowl. Then it starts to become a bit unclear. When we try to make an experience out of it, a state out of it. “Oh, there was so much spaciousness. There was just.. I couldn’t find myself in the space.” Then we made a percepHon out of it or an experience out of it, so then it can feel like that was so clear and now it became blurry. But that perceptual experience was never It. Whatever the percepHon maybe we can leave it aside. Whatever our concept maybe, we can leave it aside. Now it is not possible for you to be unclear about it actually. [Pause] Yes, and so what is happening is that many of us, because that is our condiHoning, we have been taught this way in life, we try to take this intuiHve insight and we try to fit it into our minds as a concept and we want convicHon about it. So, we try to make it clear in the second bowl. We want to be convinced about it and that doesn't happen or we want to make an experience or a percepHon of this intuiHve insight which can never be a percepHon, but we try to make a state out of it, we try to hold onto it, we try to keep it in some way as some experience and therefore it gets unclear. But if you don’t try to do any of that, how will you become unclear? Are you with me so far that you noHce that lack of clarity is only at the level of percepHon or concept? [Pause]

It’s a lot. It’s a lot to take in. (Laughs) I’m aware. And there is no real rush in this way. There is no real rush, you don’t have to confirm something now or seize your chance. Nothing like that. Just relax. We are just having a conversaHon. [Silence] So, are you aware now?

That is easy. Is it clear?

Yes. That is all the clarity you will ever have and you will ever need. What else would clarity mean? [Pause]

I see, I see. Good

Okay, okay. So, let's look at this. So, you say are you Aware now. Then I can also say, when you say yes, I can also ask you, at what distance are you from this Awareness? Or what is your relaHonship with this Awareness.

And is that, something which has an owner relaHonship? Like it is the owner of awareness. Is it like that? An enHty which is the owner of awareness? Is that your insight?

It is not that. So, there is no enHty there. There is just Awareness. And yet we say, I am aware. Therefore, and this is an inference but you can use this inference to check, this I and this awareness are the same. Is there somewhere where you are but Awareness is not?

Where Awareness is but you are not?

So, it is apparent there intuiHvely that you are this Awareness. There it is apparent. Now if you try to stuff it into your mind, then it will get mixed with an idea about yourself being Jason or any idenHty which is now trying to become the owner of this discovery of Awareness. That you cannot do. So, don’t try to force anything at all. Don’t try to force it to become an experience or to force a conceptual understanding of it. [Pause] And what is the third bowl? The third bowl was, whatever you could want out of this discovery, you put it there. And this is the one that trips most of us up. Because the mind will come and say ‘But then, so what? What did I get? Am I free now? Where is my halo?’ [Laughs] This is all in the realm of spiritual desires, spiritual ego. So, we put it all in the third bowl. And if you keep waiHng for like a convicHon and therefore confirmaHon, then the mind will keep playing with doubt. But we are not waiHng for any of that because I am Aware of your Reality because it is the same as my Reality. And that same IntuiHve Intelligence, in which it is so clear that I am Aware now, that is the same IntuiHve Intelligence. Just in this play of Consciousness, it seems like it is here or there, but when it is being spoken from here, it is being spoken on behalf of all, of the One Being. Now can you have a concern about this or can you only have a concern about what's on the other side of aZenHon? Which means the content part.

Concern means a ‘but’… ‘What about…?’ Some doubt? Some concern? Like that.

Yes. But the doubt will have something Hed with the content of percepHon.

Does it really apply to you in terms of what you are discovering yourself to be right now? Which doubt applies to you?

So you contemplate this some more and we will come back to you in a moment.