‘I’ Removes the ‘I’

Yes.

Now the thing is that there where there can be doubt and there can be certainty just don’t play in that playground. Because, like to quote again Krishna in the Gita he said ‘subtler than, then your intellect is the Self.’ So there where we can have a doubt how we where we can have conceptual clarity like we have the perfect framework of concepts ‘I am the Nirguna- Brahman on top of which the Saguna- Brahman comes and then, then the play of Maya starts’ and you cerate that perfect conceptual framework which is actually the design of it is t shake you out of our limited notions of what this Reality is but we create a new construct and we start to then debate others who may say ‘no, no first there is the birth of a Jeevatman then the Jeevatama becomes the little separate but not really separate from Paramatma and this play is to get back to the Paramatma’ then we can have these debates have gone on for many, many thousand years. But there is something that the teachers, the Gurus have pointed us to which is that which is ‘intuitive- insight’ beyond intellectual constructs of what this is into a heart knowing a deeper clarity and that is why we share Satsang so we can rid each other of all of these conditions and come to that which is empty of any condition empty of any limitation. So that was like the preamble to something that which I really wanted to say more importantly than everything else I just said which is that ‘your experience of your true Self the unchanging Self this experience is not going to be something that is like any other experience because with every other experience you can have a tangible quality that you can say ‘this is the experience because I perceived red color or I perceived a particular sound or I perceived some beautiful white light or something like that.’ But your experience of your Self is beyond any phenomenon. And none of you has not had it. All of us have had it whether we are in Satsang or not. But because to the mind, it is nothing it just it can convince you that you haven’t had it. I can prove it to you in a moment that ‘all of you have had it.’ You are aware of the perception of this hand? That’s it. So simply you say ‘it is ‘I’ that is aware no?’ Did you have a personnel experience of this ‘I’ Awareness? What is the color of it, the shape of it, and the size of it? And yet it is very natural unless you become very spiritually advanced and I am not saying that is a compliment. There is very natural to say that ‘it is ‘I’ that is aware.’ [Silence] Somebody comes who is here to deliver a package okay? Suppose they are not even in Satsang, never come to Satsang. And I ask them ‘hey, brother are you perceiving this body in front of you?’ They say ‘of course, what are you saying?’ Are you sure you aware of this perception? Yes, I am aware will you take this package or not? [Smile] We will say this and yet without having any spiritual concept they can, they can confirm this that ‘I is aware.’ There is no separation or distinction between ‘I’ the ‘real I’ and Awareness. So ‘I’ removes the ‘I’ and yet remains the ‘I’ as Bhagavan [Sri Ramana Maharishi] said. So what is the ‘I’ that is removed? It is the conditioned the limited the made-up entity which is let go off. But you remain as you are. So, so I am telling you this because I want you to go beyond looking or chasing experience. Because this non-experience experience is your very nature. Your Self-Awareness, your Self- knowledge is your very nature. It is not even something that you have it is what you are. So come to this intuitive insight and don’t allow the mind to convince you ‘but, what is the point of that? I didn’t really get anything.’ You in a way have got that which is beyond this universe, beyond all the limitations of the physical laws of this phenomenal appearance. It is your most pristine discovery that which you already always had, in fact, you were you are. And the other trouble is that don’t expect it to do something for you. Don’t expect to make you enlightened. Don’t expect it to make you free. Don’t expect it to make you a Satsang teacher. Don’t expect it to give you some talents some Siddhis. Because this ‘you’ is what you are getting freedom from. So don’t burden your Self-discover with an expectation of ‘what it must do for ‘me’? This is the most common trick from the mind is the trump card from the mind. It will say ‘ahh, you got it no? Okay, okay, prove it how did your life change? Where is the, where is the constant bliss? Where are your devotees? You still have problems at work.’ It will use all of these things as evidence problems in relationships, the problem at work, and say ‘see you, you are not free.’ And you believe all of this circumstantial evidence and say ‘yes, there must really be a problem.’ But the Self-recognition, Self-discovery has nothing to do with the animated play of this body- mind. Who do you want freedom for? Is it just a short cut you tried all wordily things (not just, I am not just speaking to the questioner, of course, I am speaking generally now) you tried everything wordily and it did not help you succeed as a person and now you looking for spirituality to help you succeed as a person? To make you a happy person? To make you a person that is content? That is not what for spirituality is for. At least not this type of spirituality. Of course, I am not saying that there is an opposition to any of that happening. I am just saying that is we put that as the primary and the Truth as secondary that ‘Truth must be in service in making ‘me’ happy. Truth must be in service in making my body healthy. Truth must be in service to ‘me’ finding my perfect so-called soul mate.’ Then it is actually looking for that which is beyond this material realm just so that we can get some material benefit out of it. And although it may seem like for most of us that was the primarily inclination to come to Satsang, but we can’t just hold on that isn’t it? There comes a point where we realize that something here is more broader more universal than that and we let go of this idea of ‘what’s in it for me?’ because that’s how we have suffered so much in the world. Going to everything with this maha-mantra of ‘what’s in it for me?’ and we continue to do that we come to Satsang also with this idea of ‘what’s in it for me?’ But Satsang is to rid you of this ‘me’ not to give something to this ‘me.’