I Am What I Am

Yes.. Yes that's a good question and what do you find?

Yes.

Connected in a way but also independent in the sense that if the sense perception is not there it would still be what it is. Isn't it? That we notice.. Sometimes our eyes are closed there is only darkness being perceived and yet I am what I am. Nothing to hear, nothing to touch, nothing to taste yet I am what I am. Then all perceptions can come all taste can appear but I remain what I am... untouched in all of this. So in a way connected because all are appearing in my light. All appearing in my light as Consciousness and in that way connected. In that way everything is a child of Consciousness. But consciousness is not dependent on anything that may appearing. Nothing can ever be disconnected from Consciousness but Consciousness can never become dependent on anything that is appearing.

But that is more like attention, you see? What we call attention is perception and it is very limited because you cannot perceive too many things properly at the same time. I do that experiment sometime you know, just keep looking at this hand (holding his hand in front) and also think of a thought and both should be very clear. And you'll start to notice that the hand will become blurry or the thought will not be clear. So that is the limitation of perception, of attention. But Awareness has not such limitations.

Okay... We are not so concerned about attention. The attention can be wherever. In your meditation if you are comfortable keeping it as what you call ‘inside’ then that is fine. If it is just going like this... like this (showing gestures meaning random) but you are not attaching, you are not taking anything to be real or true or you are not giving belief to any interpretation of that then it cannot hurt you.

Make no position. Even ‘no position’ can become a position. Don't worry ...the mind gets confused with these kind of instruction but something there will understand what I am saying. It can feel like ‘I have to have some position. So can I be like this? [Makes a focused look] Can I be looking from my heart? Or looking from behind my eyes? What is my position?’ Then master may say 'No position’. Then it can imagine some sort of floating everywhere-ness like that. But not even that. But the mind will say ‘But I need to be either here or there or somewhere.’ You don't fall for its trick. Don't fall for its trick. Because that which is the primal identity, the 'I thought’ needs some position.... needs a reference point. And as long as we keep feeding the reference point to it saying this is where I am or what I am it will keep having try to create some shape. As you let go of all references, neither here nor there neither inside not outside all of these starts to dissolve. Then you see that initially it seems a bit strange but you get so used to it that the idea of position itself starts seem strange to you.