How Do You Check On the Truth?

So ‘Truth for Truth’s sake' is Truth without your conditions about what it must be. Then, how will you check on the Truth? How do you check on the Truth? How do you check on your Self? How do you inquire? Are you inquiring based on the by-products of the inquiry? Who is confused about what I am saying? [To the Sangha] Are you inquiring to find who you are or are you inquiring to check what you are getting because you are inquiring? Are you getting peace? Are you getting calmness? Are you getting clarity? Are you checking to find who you are? So (then), if it is like that then you will end up making ideas about yourself where you will feel like when the waves are turbulent I am no longer the ocean. When the waves are still only then I am the ocean. All ludicrous! And then your mind will say, but what is the benefit of finding ‘I am the ocean’ if the waves don’t become still. So, you are okay to live a lie that you are a wave if your finding out the Truth doesn’t have a benefit? That’s why I keep saying that finding the Truth must be worthwhile just for Itself. Not because… or so that… something has to happen. If you were the ocean, are you okay to go from this world, to die, with this illusion that you are the wave? Is it purely what do I get as a wave once I find out that I am the ocean? Is it just like that? ‘Once I find out that I am the ocean I’ll actually become a happy wave’ - it might sound like strange thing what I am saying but you look for yourself and see that this is not what you are doing. ‘Once I find that I am the ocean, I will be a happy wave’. [Chuckles] ‘Otherwise what is the benefit of finding out?’ If the non-existent wave doesn’t become happy, what is the benefit of finding out that it is the ocean? And I am putting it in these frames, these metaphors, it is sounding like - who could be like that? But if you listen to you own objections, your own struggles, your own problems in spirituality, they are all to do with this. Yes, I am the Self, I am Awareness but what about ‘me’? I am the unchanging, untouched, timeless, unborn, undying Self but just tell me what about ‘me’. [Chuckles] Are you saying that this is not going to help ‘me’? Yes! [Laughs] And that’s why I was saying that although the discovery of the Self is the simplest thing, in fact, it is not a thing at all. Your discovery of your Self – simplest, most natural; but to let go of expectations, that is what you are struggling with. That ‘my Freedom should mean something for me’. So, expose at least to yourself what your idea of Freedom means and throw it away if you can. Because, this is the garbage that we are using to check on our Freedom. I am saying ‘but you are Free now’. But you will say, ‘Oh but I still have to deal with the bad colleague at work tomorrow’ - it [Freedom] has got nothing to do with that’. Who are you? In a way, to see that, only the Truth is or only the Master’s grace is, to see that Guru Kripa Kevalam, you must first only want the Truth. Because, otherwise we only want the Truth, so that …. something. You are That which always is. This world will come and go, many millions of worlds like this will come and go for you but you will remain untouched. Are these just some fantasies? Was Ashtavakra [Vedic sage in Hinduism] lying when he says ‘You are the boundless ocean in which the arcs of the universe, they come and go’. Was he making thus up to make everyone feel good? And the sages remind us that you are the unborn and the undying. Are they just playing some sort of mind games with us? And what is it that you want for yourself. Can anything be greater than your Reality already? If you are that in which the universes, they come and go, what do you want?