A Taste of the Impossibility to Convey the Intellect of the Reality of the Self

Surrender means you stay with this divine presence and let life take care of itself, is that what you mean to surrender? Now, suppose you did that and things did not go according to plan?

No problem, sure?

Ultimately or even otherwise? [Smiles]

According to whose plan?

God’s plan… because many times we feel like ‘We surrender and everything will be taken care of according to my plan.’ I tried to achieve these four concerns [money, health, relationship, the search for meaning] through effort, through doer-ship, now I am letting go of doer-ship and maybe everything will be taken care of. But if the concerns remains the same, which is money, health, relationship, the search for meaning; and we are actually trying to look for a way (quick way) to get what we want phenomenally through surrender, then surrender does not work that way. Surrender means we surrender first the expectation itself. So the expectation that ‘things will be taken care of’ itself must be dropped. Because even if it is we say ‘things will be taken care of according to God’s plan’ there can be hidden an expectation, even in that. You surrender because there is no option but to surrender. To surrender itself means to see that there is no individual doer so you see that this idea of the power of control was just made up. So it is not surrender - so that something can be taken care of. This is a very important point and most miss this point actually. Because we surrender so that things will be taken care of now, but things have always been taken care of. It did not need your surrender. Nothing is out of place, not a blade of grass, not a snowflake that falls, falls out of place, it’s old Zen saying. So if not one snowflake falls out of place, what are we hoping that ‘surrender’ will do for us? Because this is the fallacy many times. We feel like ‘we have tried, tried, tired, I can’t do it. So let me then go to God and then he will do it for me.’ So God is now our new servant - just what we want, we want to achieve through that. But that is not what surrender is. In true surrender, the expectation must be surrendered first. The idea of what should happen as a result of my surrender, that should go. And then you see that everything is always taken care of - Guru Kripa Kevalam. It is not after that you say ‘Guru Kripa Kevalam’ that it becomes Guru Kripa Kevalam [Smile]. Or not after we accept that ‘All is Master’s grace, Sadguru’s grace’ not after that does Guru Kripa play out it is more a statement of our recognition that ‘everything has always been Masters grace’ and that is tough, seems to be tough. Because we can accept the candy-flavoured moments as Master’s grace but when things don’t go according to our minds plan or our desire, things don’t go according to our desire, then we can feel like ‘It’s not going according to Master’s grace.’ But if there is something outside of Master’s grace then there is no Master’s grace. Who wants a limited grace? [Smile] Nobody. So, so to let go of concern about everything phenomenal, to let go of concern about everything phenomenal. So in Vedantic terms, you would say let go of concern about all that is unreal. So first you have to know the distinction between real and unreal and then you have to let go of concern about all that is unreal.