Vigilance and Inquiry - 23rd August 2017

It seems like in the world, Father, and it seems like that on my part there's always a responsibility to always be vigilant, like a watchful eye, to see whether I'm taking anything as true or not. Catching this itself is making me restless.

Some very good question. And often I say that if you don't want to become like... it doesn't look very free, is it? Constantly, 'Is the mind coming? Is the mind...?' This doesn't look like a free state at all. It looks like somebody who is scared out of his wits. So the sage is not like that. So the vigilance has been taken too far, let me put it another way. So vigilance, as I would say, is this simple non-denial. Because what is happening is, if you've been watching Satsang and using vigilance for some time, then when you pick up an idea about yourself, it is bound to... some suffering is bound to show very quickly, actually. So when that happens, not to use being some sort of avoidance in the sea, but wait till you see: What is it that I'm truly believing about myself? So you pull that into your inquiry so that concept becomes empty of belief, empty of any life.

As a response to using this vigilance, I try to save the inquiry for moments when I'm not trying to get rid of it. Yes, this is something that I feel about myself. It seems like everybody... is it true that inquiry must be reserved for those moments of real interest?

So true that inquiry must be reserved when you have your interest. It's good, it's good. But I won't reserve it that way. Like that is fine, but sometimes it doesn't just have to be the inquiry, no? You can just be... something starts poking, this much can become that you're doing. I really like the practice part of it, I would say just be ready in my heart for it. Be devoted to it in that way, it is beautiful. But you're very much to the existence. It doesn't even have to be 'Who am I?' What is it really? What is the question 'Who am I?' provoking? It is provoking this inner looking. Oh, what is here that in anything can happen, whatever the trigger might be? So if I say something you don't like, for example, this is the thing to drop off, you see? Suppose you're being... I hope you haven't... anything. Think I read something hurtful. It doesn't have to be accompanied by that, or inquiry becomes just like that. So you say that it becomes instant looking. It can be, and yet if you are using it...