Stay Anchored In Emptiness

I just, you know, like what gets to me is like, suppose I am feeling really blissful. Then that feeling pops up: 'I'm feeling very good.' Yeah, that feeling says 'I'm feeling very good.' There's something else that comes. To come to that feeling of feeling very good, I have actually put that personality in. Like, 'Please, now you know, enough is enough.' And then I'm in another zone and I feel... but then what happens is that I come out of that because I then feel like I'm the experiencer of this. You feel, sometimes, and then that one word is the whole difference.

As long as you feel, whatever, it's fine. But if that 'feel' becomes a 'thing,' then that is the start of trouble. So you feel very good. Even if you go to some pilgrimage or some beautiful holiday spot, you may feel very good. The minute you start to think about feeling very good—that 'this feels very good'—then it says, 'Okay, so maybe I should move here, maybe I can just live here.' All of that. Then that feeling very good becomes distant. Then we say, 'Oh, okay, now I got too caught up in all of this. Let me... I want to taste that which I first experienced.' Like that. Because we have concluded about it, it is no longer just being perceived as pure feeling, but now as the idea of good and bad, right and wrong. All of this is the same track.

So don't determine any good or bad. Then we start to notice that when you get used to remaining empty, you start to notice the texture of feeling and the texture of thinking. Both can be allowed, but to buy into the invitation from the thought—'I'll help you make sense of what this is'—is like an itch that you want to scratch. 'I'll tell you what's happening.' You're fine. You're just fine. Everybody's fine. No, like this, everyone is fine. It is impossible to be troubled. Fine. Then it says, 'Let me tell you what's happening in your life. You know, the people at your work, they all hate you.' And nothing changed, really. You were just sitting and it seemed like you went from just heaven to hell in two thoughts. You know, just in two thoughts you can just make that leap.

Just like what's happening to you now—nothing. But 'Yesterday, you know, she told me like this.' That is exchanging heaven for hell. And it doesn't do it so blatantly, especially for those of you in Satsang. It doesn't say, 'Oh, come listen to me, I'll tell you about horrible things.' No, because it knows then it'll be caught out and wrong. So it'll say, 'This is very nice. I feel I'm really deepening in Satsang. You know, Father said those four truths about God, very nice.' Like that. But then, 'When he was saying like that, so-and-so was looking at me like this. I don't know what problem he has with me.' So you went from where to where? Within a few thoughts, it all changed. So it lures you in with the bait. The bait can be very like this. This is what we have to be vigilant to, but not get into the 'checker guy' trap.

That is the whole theme of Satsang. We'll come to the anchors in a moment, but you're getting a sense of just unanchored, innocent, unanchored, open, and empty, isn't it? This empty—do you get a taste of it? It always invites you in with some value. It doesn't say, 'I'm going to make your life terrible.' Unless, I mean, for some people it does that—those who are fully up in the mind and they find it too difficult to escape, then it just gets to its true oppressive, bullying nature. But mostly, the ones that it is still fighting for, it will say, 'Come, I'll tell you something very nice.' You know, this human need to gossip is like that. It starts off very friendly and loving, then after, 'Oh, like this, like that, also she said like this.' Then soon we hate her. We started feeling so good, and soon we are into these kinds of territories.