I'm Aware, But Am I Aware of This Awareness? - 1st August 2016
Saar (Essence)
Ananta guides a seeker to recognize that the ability to say 'I am aware' proves that awareness is already aware of itself. He dissolves the dichotomy between the 'I' and awareness, revealing their fundamental unity.
Awareness is your only non-phenomenal experience; everything else is tasted phenomenally.
In saying 'I am aware', we are saying that awareness is aware of itself.
Who is aware of awareness? This question unifies the sense of 'I' and awareness.
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Transcript
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Okay, I read the question you asked first which was: Sorry, Father, what do you mean by the expression of the discovery? This meant by for those who have this recognition of who they are, they might have a different way of expressing it because no expression actually can explain what I discover. Isn't it? Yes, like that way exactly. Yeah, you cannot explain one-to-one who has not experienced. Yeah, that part I got it now because right now I'm what I can... numb. He is... there is no like, you know, even when now this the medication or and worry what was going on, I can't sit in silence, Father. Somehow that part is not my cup of tea and feel something like that. If it has to happen, it happens. I'm not realize it, but when you're doing a 35-percent, I can't sit for long. I don't know, somehow that doesn't go... so even though there's a... okay, said it's a lefty here now at the moment. I come like I'm not my life to fight about cultivating the thoughts or feeling goes wrong, all those things is gone. Like even experienced person, you know, doesn't matter. There's no path to the present. Everything is gone. There's nothing, absolutely nothing now. Actually, I don't know what I want to say, but what is the same thing. But if all identification is drawn, or most identification, and looking relations... yeah, yes, then doesn't sound like anything we can do.
No, it's absolutely okay. I'm fine.
Yeah, no, even if something comes up, it's okay. It doesn't really bother you know. What I want to see this, dear Father, I want to ask something because maybe something... maybe because... is it okay that I'm not able to... like, I'm aware, like I don't know if I'm aware of the awareness? Yeah, yes, I got it now. So I don't know if I'm aware of the awareness. Yeah, yes, at the same time I'm aware that I'm not what I'm not. Yeah, yeah.
Okay, this is very good. Just pause here. This much is enough to start with. Okay, it's actually very simple. What we say... when we say 'I am walking,' we know what is walking. When we say 'I am running,' we know what is running. Yeah? 'I am tasting,' we know what is tasting, is it? And also at the realm of emotion, we know there is sadness coming, is it? Yeah, I know there is happiness, is it? Now, how do we know this? We know it because everything else that we say, we know what it is. Now, what is this awareness? So just like there's this 'I am aware of walking,' you see, also the sense 'I am aware of awareness.' The difference being walking is a phenomenal activity and awareness is prior to all phenomena, you see. Otherwise, we would not be able to say 'I am aware.' If we didn't... if you were not aware of awareness, how would we say 'I am aware'?
The trouble is that you don't see something phenomenally, and because we don't see something phenomenally, the mind comes and says, 'I don't know if I'm aware or not.' Then how can you say 'I am aware'?
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No, no, no. What I meant is, sorry, I am aware. That's it. There, when I type up 'aware of awareness,' that's what I'm... that's what I'm saying.
Okay, this is very good. I'm happy to speak about this. So if you're not aware of awareness, how can you see? Yeah? It's very subtle, subtler than the mind is. How can you say 'I am aware'? Why don't you say 'I am not aware'?
Well, I got it. Like, Father, much more... I'll go and... ah, it was going to send a thing. Oh my god, yeah! It's just that... so I was like... how does it fit? Like, oh, okay, saying... yeah, it's just that. Yeah, it's just that. It's hidden there only. I have to be okay.
Hidden in plain sight. Exactly, which was overlooked.
Yes. When I... when I say 'I'm not aware of awareness,' I am aware of awareness, otherwise why would I say I was? I felt like I was like... this is so subtle. This is very subtle, very... yeah, hidden. Now, as you recognizing this, do you seem a little... seem like it is the most obvious, isn't it?
It is. And I was thinking I have to... it's like my look like I'm... it's making me believe that because that was the last thing I think. Oh my god, it's like making me wonder and it's too thick. Have you got it right? These are very subtle saps. I think others cannot be... yeah. I feel like it's very, very good to come to this point because it is very direct. It leaves no room for the mind to maneuver. There is no scope for the mind to actually contribute much to this except to express its frustration and doubts and things like this, you see.
So when we come here, okay, who is this that says 'I am aware'? Say, 'I am not sure if I'm aware of awareness.' Then how do we say 'I am aware'? Why don't we say 'I am not aware'? What gives us the ability to say 'aware' in the first place? What is this 'aware'? Yes, this 'aware' is your only non-phenomenal experience. Everything else is tasted phenomenally. Even your being is experienced; primordial phenomena it might be, but still phenomenal. But even now you cannot say what you saw since... if no, no, I am... yet it seemed so obvious. I mean, unless I wore all the time and I believe that I was not, which is... which is not something phenomenal actually.
That's why... or probably I don't... you say that can be kind of... what's up? Feel like that pure sensation in my heart after this? Yeah, I hope I could see that somehow. Oh, maybe so. This... this leaves no proof of anything but like kind of any specific something. Ha! I mean, to the mind, not to the awareness. A lot of teaching, Father, yes. And to a mind, and to the belief in the mind, and a kitchen with my... oh, forgive me. I need to thank you so much, Father. Thank you, thank you, thank you so much.
I like you very much like this when we can come and say, 'I'm not aware of awareness.' What do you mean? 'I am aware.' And then we just look at it and see: why do we say 'I am aware'? So her question actually is very beautiful. She said, 'I am aware, but I don't know where I'm aware of this awareness,' you see. This is 'I am aware.' Yes, yes, of course I am aware, but I don't know whether I'm aware of this awareness. But in saying 'I am aware,' there itself we are saying that I am aware of this awareness. Till awareness is aware of itself, you see.
That is why I feel that 'Who is aware of this awareness?' removes this dichotomy between awareness and 'I.' Because for many years in Satsang, I've seen that the recognition of awareness seems to become in relation to an 'I' which is not awareness, and then we refer to it as 'it.' 'Nothing happened to it, but I am suffering. Nothing happening to it, but I am suffering,' you see. 'Nothing happening to it, but I have fear or I have something,' you see. Now, what is the cause of this dichotomy? The cause of this dichotomy is only that awareness has also been taken as an experience by the mind, and it says it is over there and you are over here. So when we ask the question 'Who is aware of awareness?', you see, it unifies this sense of 'I' and awareness. This is the 'I' that remains. Your answer 'I' removes the 'I' and it remains 'I.' This is the 'I' that remains.
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