How Is The 'I' Which is Aware Distinct from Awareness? - 25th July 2016

Yes. Then who would it be that is aware of awareness?

Me.

Huh. Can only be me. Yes. And this me that is aware of awareness has... what? What is this me that is aware of awareness? What is the distinction between awareness and this me? That is what we are looking for. The distinction between awareness and this me is what we are looking for. One point of distinction between awareness and me, this me that is aware. Just one point.

It doesn't even feel like a me then to where... it just feels okay. I know this doesn't mean... it just feels like awareness is here.

Yes. And who is aware of this?

Yes, I.

And who is aware of this I? You of this. Very good. And only awareness is here, is it so? Just even as an inference we can see that I must be awareness itself. But I don't want you to infer. We might just keep checking. What is the distinction between this I that is aware and the awareness itself? Just look for one difference between the I that is aware of awareness and the awareness itself.

Moving around a little bit. Yes, yeah.

So what's moving around? Attention can move out. That's okay. Who is aware of that? I don't even know it's moving. Yes, I can go something like this. Question is the greatest auspiciousness. Let anything that is meant to happen, happen. The I that is aware, how is this I different from the awareness? It's you. That's the attention. Have to go there because it's all over the place. Turn. So to recognize itself, does the attention have to stay there? No. Attention can move about. You yourself said, who is aware of this attention? If automatically in the questioning you find that attention comes here, it's fine. But you don't have to force it. It's effortless. I am conscious, which is out of my field online. Yes, but that's not what my question is. This I that is aware, what is the one point of distinction between this I and awareness itself? But now what is the thing? What is the thing when you look? I said let attention move out wherever it wants. Let it go. So you don't wander off with a question about that. Who, this I that is aware of awareness, what is the difference between it and awareness? Now our attention is moving. What is without the movement of attention using here? Yes, but here when I say are you aware now, it is just known. Is it your prior to attention, prior to any other movement? The reporting requires movement, but we are not so interested in the reporting. The I that is aware, how is it different from awareness? Just spot one difference. The question is that simple. How are you doing with this?

There is no difference.

So this I that is aware is awareness itself. Is awareness itself. However, if you are coming to this recognition, very good. And so you saying you're not aware? You're not sure whether you're aware? Are you sure you are aware? No, it's serious. Are you sure you are aware?

Yes.

This is full understanding. And you will not understood it mentally because nobody can understand awareness mentally. You can make some reports on it which can be very beautiful, but that's not the point. You see, I am sure I am aware. This is all I need. So all we need. So then we are asking that this I which is aware, how is it distinct from the awareness itself? It's not distinct from the awareness. So let me say 'I am aware' is the same as saying 'awareness is aware'.

Okay. I think that the toughest time that here is because this is always... has always been pointed out like an entity or your sins and this is not an entity.

Exactly. There is nobody there. Yes, yes. So because I has been used in another way, and yet there's been a deeper knowing of the truth about I always also. Only that in this realm we've always used I to denote the body-mind. Therefore now when we are coming to this non-phenomenal I, but it is important to recognize that it is this I. This is what Bhagwan was pointing to in his head: the I removes the I and yet remains I. So the false I is removed, but the true I, which is this awareness itself, remains. Now the point is we've all heard these words. Now I'm talking you into the recognition of this, which the mind will use every trick to try and evade. Easy, using everything possible to try anyway. But it's so simple actually that you cannot miss it. You will only miss it if you are looking for an object or an entity or something. But that what this is, is prior to that. It is simpler than that. It is not a phenomenal finding. We have been looking for the I in the wrong place. You've been looking for I phenomenally. We've been looking for the I in the byproducts, is it? But now we are just simply seeing the truth has always been the truth and there has always been this awareness of it.

Father, it feels like it can't find the difference because I can't find my I.

Yes. And yet we say 'I can't find the I.' So this I is always here, you see? It's always here because you are aware. It is not anyone else. You are aware. Is this true? This is true. This is clear. 'I am aware.' He cannot find the I is exactly what I am saying. We cannot find it phenomenally. That's why it is confusing to the mind. I'm here most naturally. They say 'I am aware' without even the effort to try and find I, because I is what you are, this awareness itself. As I say that, try the other way. Don't be aware. Try not to be aware. Try to exist without being aware. Don't get stuck in the semantics. Just try to push away awareness and exist without it. Don't say sense of existence is that, don't get stuck with all that. Don't be aware. Can you find an independent entity outside of this awareness which owns this awareness? If there was, there must be an experience of, or there must be some validation of this non-awareness. That is never our experience. This awareness is unmissable. The phenomenal I, I cannot find, except the most immaculate phenomena 'I am' itself. It is the first modulation of this I. Okay, but let's not go there right now. This I that is aware, 'I am aware.' This I, how is it distinct from awareness? Why do we say 'I am aware'? Why don't we say the room is aware, or the chair is aware? I will say 'I am aware.' You don't say the body is aware, you say 'I am aware.' Yes. So this my awareness is whose awareness? This I's awareness it is. How is that different from the awareness itself? Is it my awareness really? My... who is this I whose awareness it is? How's it distinct from awareness? How are you able to report this with so much confidence? So look at that. How is any of this clear? How do I confirm I am aware? Why do I use these words 'I am aware'? Why would I say 'I am aware' if it was not the truth? And yet this awareness is not seen phenomenally. It is just aware of itself because the primal knowing of knowingness itself.