Get Used to the Silence - 30th Oct. 2015

Don't allow this trickster voice to confuse or delude you anymore, because you are here. That means something is done with this play. I have given you the master key to be free from all suffering. And even if it seems like it is effort—because the hardest thing that you can ever do, even if you are believing this, then put this effort to not believe your next thought—you will find that the sense of it being effort was completely false. And don't follow this pointing believing that it will bring you to some freedom. The starting point is freedom. You are free now. The only thing that is happening is the dropping of the pretense of personhood by not believing the next thought. You are the Self. You are free. You are the light. You are home.

For too long you have pretended to be the non-existent one. That which is here is you. That which needs belief can never exist. That which is not found is not real. What cannot leave when you leave everything aside? What can't be left aside? You are that. That has no problems, that has no concern, has not even a sense of control over anything. This power rests with you completely as Consciousness. Don't believe otherwise. Don't say, 'As a person I can do nothing.' There is no person. You have never been a person. You have always been Consciousness, and ultimately you have always been that which is aware even of Consciousness. You are this ocean of existence, and some of you are still pretending to be the drops in this ocean. And that is your choice as Consciousness, but know that it is a lie. Know that it is a lie; it can never be true. God cannot lose.

I hope all of you are completely tired of the lie. It is my blessing to you that you'll be completely tired of the pretense. We have been blessed by the suffering which has brought us here. It has been a great blessing. We are blessed by the suffering which is making us more and more open. And it might sound strange, but as your teacher and as your friend, I am grateful to this suffering if it is appearing for you, because it is burning all that is false. Let it burn. Everything that can be burnt, let it burn. Don't try to rescue anything. Only the false can be burned. Everything that pops up, this idea of 'me,' you burnt in the fire of this Satsang, or we burnt in the fire of your devotion. Either in the Presence or in the devotion, or if you are not willing to let it go here, then in your suffering itself, your own Presence is causing this movement of dissolution of all that is false.

Don't resist anything. If this entire universe has to burn to ashes, let it go. It cannot touch you. You are that from which the light of the creation of all the realms arises. Are you not done in playing this game? You're that in which the Supreme Lord is born. What is attractive in this person? Don't touch the person. So listen to this voice which is coming from your own Presence and don't buy any stories from the mind, no matter how attractive, how true it might seem. It is not, because it is still referring to you as this bucket of flesh, blood, and bones. And this is Maya—how the Supreme Lord has the power to pretend to be this bucket of flesh, blood, and bones. He himself has created this hypnosis of thoughts. No idea, no thought, no story you have. Get used to it, and you will find that there is so much joy in this being without any story.

Even if it feels uncomfortable for a while to drop all your stories, I know initially it can seem like it is sort of a limbo state. The fear will come: 'I don't know what's happening to my life, am I going in the right direction?' As if you've always gone in the right direction in the past! Just this little bit of fear tries to pull you back. Not even the fear, but the interpretation that this is what the fear means. Just forget about it. Whatever it is, forget about it. Given the story of the last Satsang, in the eyes of eternity, it is nothing at all. Actually, my job has only been one, which is to stand as a mirror in front of you and only ask this question: 'Who are you?' And the true mirror does not reflect the false; therefore, I have not bought your stories, your ideas, because I could not do you this disservice. I love you too much for that. Just been here as a mirror, not accepting any story, just asking who you are is all that I have done. And you yourself have seen again and again, discarded the false, and for that, this mirror is very grateful.

And now you know. You now know when you pick up a false story, you know. And this knowing is my gift to you, because the same knowing which operates from here is now operating in all of you. Just be wary of this thought that comes and says, 'Yes, I know it now, I'm okay with my...' There is nothing in that play. There is nothing in any mental play. No joy is coming from there, and no joy is missing without the mind. No love is missing without the mind. So whenever it still comes and tempts you—'Come, come, let's play'—know that it can show you the way only to misery, no matter how enlightened you believe yourself to be. Remember that no matter where you are, whatever the situation might be, all the pointings that you heard in Satsang are completely true right here, right now. In whatever appearance might be, you cannot stop being. You are aware.

So if you ask, 'Can I stop being now?' immediately the Presence of God is available at your service—God in service to God himself. And when you ask, 'Am I aware now?' and just a simple looking, you see that this Awareness is here, that which is aware even of Consciousness. This you are, untouched by any appearance. If it seems like a choice, that you still have a choice, don't pick up the 'me.' Don't pick up the 'me.' Then it will be clear to you soon that this Grace itself made this choice. But while it still seems like a choice, don't believe your thought. Don't pick up the 'me.' Don't try to Advaita your way out of this. Don't try to use non-doership as a way out of this; it is still a mind trick. Whatever the mind might be selling, don't buy. And if you buy—and everyone does, even the sages, they buy some thoughts—then you drop it. That is all. Don't believe any guilt about anything. No guilt and no proclamations, just the simplicity of being.

I just want to thank all of you for allowing this voice into your heart, opening the door to this Presence. And most of all, the biggest gratitude, biggest Pranam at the feet of my Master, for allowing his servant, his son, to share his words. I want to end by saying what he said: 'Stop looking at yourself as Arjuna. Find the Krishna which is there, your own Presence. Speak as that.' Thank you, thank you, thank you.