Consciousness Wants to Experience Its Limitlessness - 7th October 2016
Saar (Essence)
Ananta explains that consciousness willfully experiences the play of limitation and suffering through the false constructs of desire and doership. He teaches that recognizing consciousness as the only doer dissolves the ego's burden of pride and guilt.
The 'maha-mantra' of the mind is 'what’s in it for me,' driven by desire and doership.
Once doership is seen as false, the ego is deprived of its oxygen and nutrition.
A thought cannot fire a neuron; the body moves on its own while the mind claims credit post-facto.
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Transcript
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So when the I Am wants to experience limited—itself of limitations—and it wants to experience existence through senses, yes, then if it... that's why, that's where you need to perform the actions. Huh? Because as the limited body, I need to feed and clothe it, so I will then need to do certain things to make that happen. Yes, right? And then the sensory enjoyments... I think, and this is the difficult one, man, I think even the suffering is what that one wants to experience. It will know what it feels like.
Very good. Yes, this is difficult for many but it's completely true. It's completely true that even this suffering is being experienced because it is our will to experience it. This I Am wants the taste of this suffering because it wants the taste of all contrasts. Often I take this example which is not very palatable; it's also written, it can sound repulsive to some more sensitive like this: in this realm of appearances, all contrasts are available. If there are sages, there are also serial killers, ax murderers. So, are they not consciousness? They are. So this is one consciousness playing in all duality—really good and bad, truth and lies.
And we do not actually know what makes good 'good'. Is it just that in this play, in on this realm, it seems like there's an internal compass of some sort that guides us towards that which is good? Even a child knows that lying is wrong somehow, even if they've not learnt it from their parents' programming. But for consciousness, which is the impersonal experiencer, they are all the sugar and spice of this experience, actually.
So you are absolutely right that consciousness experiencing itself, wanting to play in a limited form as if it is the body-mind complex, it then conjures up this idea of being a person and then gives it these two Ds. The D of desire and the D of doership are the main two Ds. 'What's in it for me? What's in it for me? What's in it for me?' Every situation we go into: 'What's in it for me?' And not only 'What's in it for me?' but 'Me first' and 'Me only' if possible. Huh? I have also heard in the Satsang that it's most irritating if somebody in the Satsang seems to be getting it but I am not getting it. If nobody was getting it, it's fine by me! So not only is it 'What's in it for me?' but 'Me first' and 'Me only' if it's possible. Huh? It's true, that's how it operates.
The mind is... so the maha-mantra of the mind is 'What's in it for me?' which means desire. Is it? Then when this one seems to awaken in some way, then: 'Okay, now what should I do? What should I do? What should I do? What should I do? What did I do? Why did he do? Why did she do?' Doership. These two are the main legs of the ego: desire and doership. That is why, although these things which we are discovering are so obvious, there's a lot of investment which has gone into doership also. There can be investment in others' doership. One lady came to Guruji once and she said, 'Yes, it seems pretty clear to me that I don't exist, but I just can't fathom that my husband doesn't exist,' you see?
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So very often it can be like this, that we seem to drop the idea that 'I am the doer' but it seems like everybody else around me is the doer. So that then more and more feeds our victim identity. All our guilt and pride... those who are attracted to guilt will say, 'Oh yes, yes, all the good things that happened to me, God is doing, but all these bad things, I am the doer of them.' So you feel guilty. Those who are attracted to pride will take credit for all the good stuff, and then one bad thing happens—supposedly bad thing happens—they go to God crying, 'Why are you doing this to me?'
So all of this is stuck: guilt, regret, remorse, pride. All of these are made up of this idea, false idea, of doership. Once doership goes, then the ego cannot survive for too long. Once we see that there is nobody who is the doer, or there is one doer which is consciousness—same thing—then you see that it is like the oxygen mask has been taken off from the ego, you see? The nutrition of doership has been deprived. So you could be very happy looking like this.
Just to put it simply, the video game is enjoyed when you are able to relate to the character. You put on the video game: James Bond got ten missions. But if the voice doesn't come and say, 'Mr. Bond, your mission is...' you cannot relate to the character. Same with this mind. This voice is saying, 'This is what you have to do, this is your order,' and with that, we get attached to this idea of being Mr. Bond. We want to do this. Now as doership is dropping and we see that this play, this game, is moving on its own, you find a great sense of ease will come because it seemed like this big burden of doership which has been carried... then you just find the hand moving on its own. Mind comes post-facto and says, 'Oh, you moved this hand.' Even if it comes before, actually it has no way to move the hand. A thought cannot fire a neuron. How do you move your hand if you only come as a thought? So with this, then this becomes a very enjoyable play that we are watching. Beautiful play without all of this pride, guilt, remorse. Exactly.
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